Settling in

Settling in. Settling is a funny word. Getting my attitude right has been difficult. Maybe made more so by all the studying I've been doing about personal growth, laws of attraction, consciousness, and alignment. Making having a positive outlook imperative. But it's not always possible. I keep feeling like it's my freshman year of college and it's pretty shitty because everything is new and just not falling into place (yet) and that can be okay but also because it has to be until It improves. I've started to feel better remembering that I'm just traveling, I'm just here exploring and trying something new. Takes so much pressure off of it. So I can just bugger off whenever I feel like it maybe sooner maybe later except for that one small thing of funding my travels. Everything worked out perfectly in that I got my first paycheck right as I was pretty much at the bottom of the tank. Now that I know what I'm bringing in I can do a budget of my bills and what I spend every month annndddddd look at that they're exactly equal. So I won't be saving I just also won't be hemorrhaging money anymore. Hemorrhaging? How can that be the way that word is spelled? Who was responsible for that? But on the bright side I just got a car! A pretty little red Audi A4 and it was cheap as! My sweet friend Adam helped me find it and buy it and he drove it up here for me. Thank heavens for him. Really so good to be able to get around besides walking. And I worked a night at this cool event center in town and hopefully I'll be able to continue doing that. Until then gotta start bringing sandwiches to work instead of spending $13 on quiche and salad everyday. Can't be living like one of those fancy New Yorkers who buys lunch all the time.

Yoohoo

No one is reading this anymore and I'm trying to figure out if I care. I think I like keeping the blog. It's nice to have a more succinct summary of what I was thinking about when I was traveling before. And traveling I am still. It's just now with the instagrams and the whatsapps, people probably don't miss me as much as they used to. So things are happening now, which is why I feel qualified to report about my life again. Waiting and hoping and thinking was interesting too but I couldn't publish anything about it cause it felt like it could jinx it. It's also just not very impressive. Today was my 2nd official day at the small architecture firm I am working at here. It's pretty exciting that that worked out considering how hard it feels to find work in architecture. It's sort of fun work and the people in my office are really nice and silly. New Zealanders are silly in general, I really like that. But I'm starting a new job in a new country, learning a new drafting program with new units of measurements, it's a bit of a strain on my brain. Today for the first time ever I left the house with my mouthguard in. 10 years of wearing it %97 percent of the time and I've never accidentally left the house with it in. Today I made it all the way to work and said good morning to my boss before realizing what I had done. My poor poor confused brain. Maybe it's the capitalist in me that thinks I'm not "doing things" unless I'm having an income…but it's very good that I have an income now because honestly next month would've been the end of the road, finance wise.